through a cellophane window

Last weekend xtina and I returned to our native city. We loved seeing all those we got a chance to see. 'Props' to nick and brooke for putting us up. we desparately needed a weekend away from chicago and all the problems associated with our situation.

This week:

2 more rejections (of which one was "in the bag")
1 more temp agency joined (3 total and I haven't worked since x-mas)
5 weekdays I haven't left the house
17 hours at the library - which feels more like an office
8 jobs applied for
1 new resume created
1 meeting nervously arranged with executive dad vaguely knows but promised I'd call


Last night I dreamt that I received, as a gift, a box (about two cubic feet) with a cellophane window and animals painted on the outside. I opened the box and laid it's contents on the rug. Out poured live animals: 1 small cat, 1 small bird, 1 small horse, and 2 small dogs. They were tired from the box and cellophane. They ran around my living room in a motion very much like that in 'the science of sleep.' And I cried because I felt bad for the animals - somehow I knew they were raised in a lab and led miserable lives and also because I couldn't take care of them and the giver of this gift simply didn't understand.

guest voice in my head: john waters

I can't seem to get this out of my head. The song was featured on 'all songs considered' in their 'guest dj john waters' episode.

In other news, I will be returning to grand rapids this weekend - don't worry, I'm not expecting any cake.